| bruises & bloodstains |
[11-22-06 at 3pm] |
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town with the usual few yesterday with the company of iain and celine.
played pool at Merids as usual,
went beanie shopping for dicker,
and then to plaza sing at night for dinner at pasta manias.
hurhur. i eat cheese like a crazy whore i swear.
so dick cel and anwar got amused with iain's SODA WATER.
and they thought it was rose soda. -_-
sounds so expensive.
but nahh, it was just lychee syrup and soda water. :D
and yes, iain's girlfriend's brother's name is fucking Cassidy.
WTH. its like a one in a million name in singapore.
but fuck it, it's cool.
so, celine and i headed down to mos while the boys chilled at starbucks.
and i saw many many people!
ahhh, the more amazing one was seeing elton loh!
oh my god.
drama mama lah.
we glanced passed each other, then stared hard and squinted.
before i thought to myself " AHHHH OMG ELTON LOH"
i ran towards him (in the bloody crowd) and jump-hugged him.
imagine just how happy i was to see him.
but anyway, celine got bounced out before she didnt bring IC so i went to chill with different groups of people.
before the best of the best news came.
DICKER AND ALWIN DECIDED TO COME DOWN!
i was so happy they two decided to come.
i wouldnt have felt so left out and bored then!
so the fat cat got high on sumbodka or something that prounounces like that
and me being fucking 17 couldnt go in rooom 54.
so dicker and i went to 7 elevens and got a JD.
finished it in less than 20 minutes before the winnie dicker and i got retarded by the riverside.
they took turns to shoulder ride me and thanks to dicker, my knee has a lil bruisey now :(
damn funny. there were a couple of policemen around while alwin was shoulder riding me and i just kept laughing like some retarded.
thn i kidded to dicker.
"eh go and pick up my cigg at the policemen there, i dropped it just now"
and he really went to look, coming back screaming " i dont see no cigg whore bag!"
hurhur.
oh well. so laughing all the way back to mos and danced like some mother fucker for another hour plus.
i love dancing when im high.
i can just let loose.
i just seem to live for the moment and forget about the future and the past.
thats it. i found my solution.
some malay bugger scared me. :(
oh well, and guess what? i got new bruises on my knuckles.
and WEIRDLY, its on my RIGHT hand not my left.
weird because im a left hander.
hah, i think the nitrides or nitrates iain gave just now is working.
hurhur.
alright. im tired.
grad night tmrw,
fucking boring please.
see ya'll soon.
okay. finally, time for pictures :)
   
my favourite boys currently.
samuel tan song en i fucking miss you.
but it doesn't really matter :)
i dont wanna get emotional and depressed at all.
because i know that you hate to see me being in such a state.
i know you need time to think things through and nothing really matters but your studies now.
you told me that you didnt wanna go back because of the things i have done for you.
but please note that you're being very selfish and self centered.
it isnt fair to her and yourself at all.
im not trying to say that you're a toy or whatsoever,
but please, 5 years comes a long way.
and i know you follow your heart and not your mind.
so feel it right, dont put what i have done for you as a priority and a precious memory.
all that i have done is all one sided.
all that i have thought through and felt through, is all part of my wishful thinking.
i'm not afraid to tell anyone reading this that although i have already fallen for you,
i will not blame you if the outcome is negative.
if you love her sam, go back to her.
it pains me to see you in pain,
pains me to see you quarrel with her and get upset.
make up and hold on to the point where you give up. :)
i'll always be here, waiting, loving, till the day when i find a new love.
(:
this song shall be dedicated to you,
JOJO-
Boy you’re so hard to believe
Boy you’re so hard to believe
[Verse 1:]
Just a friend
That’s all I’ve ever been to you
Oh just a girl
Who wants to be the center of your world
But I ain’t got much to offer
But my heart and soul
And I guess that’s not enough
For you to notice me
I’m just a girl
And I guess that’s all I’ll ever be to you
To you
[Chorus:]
I try to smile when I see other girls with you
Acting like everything is ok
But ohh
You don’t know how it feels to be so in love
With someone who doesn’t even know
My secret love
[Verse 2:]
In my dreams
I see us both together constantly
Why can’t you see
This love that’s here for you inside of me
Ohhh
What do I have to do
For you to notice this
You look at her with love
With me it’s just friendship
I’m just your girl
And I guess that’s all I’ll ever be to you
To you
[Chorus:]
I try to smile when I see other girls with you
Acting like everything is ok
But ohh
you don’t know how it feels to be so in love
With someone who doesn’t even know
My secret love
[Bridge:]
What do you see in her
You don’t see in me (don’t see in me)
Boy you’re so hard to believe
Why do you show her love
But there’s none for me
Boy you don’t make sense to me
Cause I don’t have much to offer
But my heart and soul
And I guess that’s not enough
For you to notice me
I’m just your girl
And I guess that’s all I’ll ever be to you
To you
[Chorus:]
I try to smile when I see other girls with you
Acting like everything is ok (everything ain’t ok)
But ohh
you don’t know how it feels to be so in love (so in love with you baby)
With someone who doesn’t even know
My secret love
Boy you’re so hard to believe
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| waiting |
[11-21-06 at 2am] |
ripped
INTRO:
Full Name: wan baoyi
Birthday: 14101989
Birthplace: singapore
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: black
Height: 5"6
Weight: 52kos
Right handed or Left handed? L
Your Heritage: chinese
My Worst Habit: complicating things
Zodiac Sign: libra
Shoe Size: 7
Pants Size: the hips are 29.
Innie or Outie? Innie
Parents Still Together? yeah
The Shoes You Wore Today: slips
Your Weakness: anything going with the heart
Your Fears: rejection, ignorance, sadness.
Your Perfect Pizza: as long as its fatfree
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: happiness
Your Most Overused Phrase On An Instant Messenger: hurhur. okay.
Thoughts First Waking Up: will today be happier
Your Best Physical Feature: fingernails
Your Bedtime: 3-6am
Your Most Missed Memory: being loved & having someone to argue with me
MY FAVORITES
Favorite color? shades of red, black white brown grey blue navy
Food? japanese
Sport? sex.
Animal? dogs, slow lorris, kittens
Ice Cream? green tea
Candy? anything sweet
Store? Liberty & Daimaru
Salad Dressing? Thousand Island or none
Actor/actress? -
Song? The Loneliness
Letter? S
Number? 14
Gum? - hate it
Holiday? none in particular
Season? spring
Toothpaste Flavor? mint
Radio Station? -
Perfume? Dolly Girl
Scent besides perfume? J Burlington & Sons - cucumber and bilberry room spray
Body part on the opposite sex? torso
FRIENDS AND LIFE
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up? a perfect wife
How Do You Want To Die? slowly in pain
Turn ons: confidence and humour
Turn offs: over confidence and childishness
Which One Of Your Friends Acts The Most Like You? -
Who's The Loudest? CELINE CHONG PING JIA!
Who Makes You Laugh The Most? samuel tan song en, alwin teo, dicker teo.
Who Have You Known The Longest? ingrid ng liwei
Who's The Shyist? wendy ong hui li
When Have You Cried The Most? this year
What Is The Best Feeling In The World? being loved by the one i love
Worst Feeling? being rejected
Where Do You Want To Live When You Grow Up? in a cottage
If You Could Change One Thing About You What Would It Be? my attitude towards my own life
How Long Do You Think You'll Live? for another 6-11 years hopefully
FINISH EACH SENTENCE
Let's walk on the... highway
Let's look at the... stars
What a nice... boy who will never be mine
Where did all the... good friends go to
Why can't we... compromise
Silly, little... whore bag
Isn't it weird that... i hate my own life
Never under any circumstance... will i ever give up on love
I wish... i was happier
Everyone has a... ocean of love, for something or someone that is
I am... never satisfied
HAVE YOU EVER
Been In Love? am in.
Been To Juvie? nope.
Mooned Someone? not that i remember
Been Rejected? yes
Ran Away From Home? never
Pictured Your Crush Naked? no
Skipped School? this year is terrible
Thought About Suicide? all the time
Slept Outside? yes
Laughed So Hard You Cried? yes
Cried In School? no
Thrown Up In School? nope.
Wanted To Be a Model? wanted
Cheated On Someone? no
Done Something Really Stupid That You Still Laugh At Today? yes
Seen A Dead Body? no
Been Bitched Out? big time.
Drank Alcohol? yah
Smoked? yah
Been On Drugs? uh
Eaten Sushi? it sanes me
Been On Stage? yes
Gone Skinny Dipping? yes
Shoplifted? no
Been Drunk? unknowingly
Been Called A Tease? yes
Been Beaten Up? no
DO YOU
Swear? too much.
Sing Well? no
Shower Daily? learnt that a couple of years back :P
Want To Go To College? yes
Want To Get Married? definitely
Believe In Yourself? never did
Get Motion Sickness? nope
Think You Are Attractive? i always try to
Get Along With Your Parents? mom yes
Like Thunderstorms? not when im sleeping
Play An Instrument? used to
Own An IPOD? yes
Pray? not anymore
Go To Church? no
Sleep With Stuffed Animals? tinker
Keep A Journal/Diary? think -_-
Dance In The Rain? running in circles till i broke down counts?
Sing In The Shower? never
THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke? none
McDonald's or Burger King? macs
Single or Group Dates? both
Chocolate or Vanilla? choc,
Strawberries or Blueberries? blues
Meat or Veggies? vegs
TV or Movie? Movie
Guitar or Drums? guitar
Adidas or Nike? adi
Chinese or Mexican? mexican
Cheerios or Corn Flakes? cheerios
Cake or Pie? cakes
MTV or VH1? M
Blind or Deaf? both
Boxers or Briefs? boxers thank you.
CAN YOU
Do The Splits? yes.
Write With Both Hands? a little
Whistle? yes
Blow A Bubble? doh
Roll Your Tongue In A Circle? yes
Cross Your Eyes? doh
Walk With Your Toes Curled? when i have toe cramps
Touch Your Tongue to Your Nose? no
Dance? i love to but i cant
Eat Whatever You Want And Not Worry? never
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON
You Touched: yvonne
You Talked To On The Phone: fauzi
You Text: alan khoe
You Instant Messaged: samuel tan
You Hugged: dicker
You Yelled At: many months ago i forgot
You Played A Sport With: does sex counts?
WHAT'S THE LAST
Time You Laughed? in the morning
Time You Cried? yesterday
Movie You Watched? casino royale
Flavor Of Gum You Chewed? uhm hate
Joke You Told? ?
Song You've Sung? Hinder - lips of an angel
RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT
Where Are You? on the bed
What Can You See Out Your Window? ecp
Are You Listening To Music? yes
What Are You Wearing? boxers panties and a spags
What's On Your Mousepad? not using one
BELIEFS
Do you believe there is life on other planets? yes
Do you believe in miracles? only been hoping for one
Magic? yes
Love at first sight? not anymore
God? i dont know
Satan? yes
Ghosts? no
Santa? no
Evolution?yes
IN A BOY...
Fav Eye Color: anything
Fav Hair Color: black
Short or Long Hair: nice
Height: above 172
Weight: acceptable
Best Clothing Style: cosplay :P
RANDOM
What Country Would You Most Like To Visit? barcelona
Number Of CD's I Own: uh
Your Good Luck Charm: my tatt
How many pillows do you sleep with? two.
Do you drink milk? yes
Person You Hate Most: wan baoyi
Do you think God has a gender? no
Where do you think we go when we die? hell
How many rings until you answer the phone? depends how far is the phone is from me
What is something scientists need to invent? forgetting potions
Are you a health freak? a little
Are you a virgin? no
If you could travel into space, where would you go? the orion
What is the worst weather? humid and hot
Did you play with Barbies as a child? doubt i liked them
How many grades have you failed? none for prelims
how could you?
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| living for the moment |
[11-20-06 at 10am] |
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it is finally over.
finally..
so i said i want to make this a private blog,
but i cant.
because i was ordered not to,
and secondly, i do not know how to lock the entire journal rather than post by post.
i see you longing for her,
see you getting upset and angry for her.
i feel your deepest emotions being wrecked,
and your trust broken by her.
im able to see, notice, feel and understand every single thing is going through your mind because of her.
and i know that you love her :)
after taking a break from the quarrel yesterday,
i realised that to be happy,
i have to be like you.
to understand you,
i must learn to put myself in your shoes.
5 years of friendship,
has definitely come to a long and twisted way.
i will learn to be like you, live for the moment.
and that is, starting my life from the beginning.
whether it involves substances (again), love, hatred, friendship or family.
i'm just going to live for the moment.
life is short, and i'll die young.
so everyday from today onwards, i'll be as happy as i can.
and that is whether you are part of my happiness,
or not part of my sorrows.
wait. sorrows? what sorrows? Hah.
oh and hi marc, i missed you yet again.
i've got so much to tell.
but hah, al part of my wishful thinking yet again.
so long, and goodbye.
pictures coming soon.
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| Jumbo |
[11-19-06 at 10pm] |
dinner with the family earlier on.
didnt have much to talk about.
didnt really felt like being with anyone but you.
why is it that you are so similar to marc?
why is it that when you held my hand it felt the same as marc held mine?
why is it so confusing, that everything is so similar?
i feel that history is going to repeat itself if a different manner.
i know we wont end up together but that makes it al the worse.
would i be hanging on stupidly like how i held on to marc?
i do wanna let go.
but it seems like im unable to so far.
i miss you marc.
and i miss you too.
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| november choplingas |
[11-19-06 at 3pm] |
oblivious to what's going on around me.
nothing matters more to me now then your happiness.
so, i realised there are quite a handful of people reading my lj.
im gonna be more careful of the content now
so if material gets boring, im sorry.
friday was 2 more papers before heading to town to meet the guys.
met up with carol kyer and ingrid and i must say, it's great :)
slacked for awhole lot before catching Casino Royale which is good at 4 in the morning.
thn to Lido's for mehdolnah before heading home.
yesterday although there was just winnie dicker and i,
but we had a little fun didnt we?
all the cheap thrills :P and silly bets.
oh, and i definitely enjoyed the free ride.
i laughed so hard till i felt like farting.
BUT DONT WORRY DICK COS I DIDNT!
heehehe.
alright. heading to Vivo.
meet celine and dickers.
so long!
turning private soon.
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| broken |
[11-16-06 at 3pm] |
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i deserve happiness.
even if it's just a little bit.
why is it always when i think i found the person so close to my dream guy,
he is either attached, gay or too heartbroken to love again.
i'm sick and tired of this little love games god invented.
it has made me lost my appetite , not being able to sleep, heartbroken.
just imagine half a bowl of porridge for yesterdays breakkie and a cheeseburger for dinner.
and until now im still NOT hungry?!?!
i WANT to eat! but im just not hungry.
sigh-
when will you tide over this sadness?
because if you do, i will too
persy
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[11-16-06 at 3am] |
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ALAN KHOE DISLOCATED MY THUMB NAIL
IT'S BLEEDING AND I CANNOT WRITE.
HOW TO DO HISTORY ON FRIDAY?
CRIES-
so it was poa paper 2 then to parkway then to teo heng
thn to gambling.
fun day though i'd have rather spent it with the dick, sam-o wrestler, winnie the pooh and -war.
:)
i miss you real bad, know that?
guess you dont exactly care because you got her to think of.
take care
im closing soon
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| holidaying- |
[11-14-06 at 10pm] |
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mood |
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TP in the morning yesterday for lunch at Engine Faculty
before heading down to the airport to meet Dickie and accompany winnie.
studied A LITTLE at macs from like 3-10 with a lot of laughters and whatsnot.
sammo came down as well after graded lab and waited for alwinnie to end work.
cabbed down to PARKWAY sounding like niggers in the cab laughing our asses off at 12plus1.
played a few rounds of pool with dicker and we got a draw match! 2-2
4 of us cabbed to my place and waited for me to bathe and change before cabbing back to serangoon.
went to winnie's place and chilled there with the company of many stars :)
then just more and more chilling and viewing people's friendsters
before we got hungry and decided to wait till 4am and ordered mac breakkies.
at 430 we were half sleeping already -_-
so HORN came the mac man and we had breakkie with the fat cat.
and after that was a cigarette, and SLEEP.
there was laughing gas in the room we kept laughing i dont know why.
so it was tilll about 6 before everyone went to sleeep, PEACEFULLY.
woke up at 8 by 3 fucking phone alarms thanks to samuel tan song en.
slept allllllllllll the beautiful way till one before heading to sammo's to study.
and i did study productively for 3 hours, i think :/
before heading to chomps for dinner with dicker and winnie.
my god.
43 took like 1/2 hour to come, and 3/4 hour to send me home. -_-
i hate it especially when my tummy ACHES.
POA TMRW. DIE.
TP vs SP Rugby match. yes/no?
PS/ I AM SICK AND FUCKING TIRED OF LIFE.
I MISS THE TIME PILLING AND BEING UNDER 50KG FOR MONTHS.
what is it that i want in life?
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| him/her/you and me. |
[11-13-06 at 2am] |
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mood |
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how much does it take for one to love?
why is love compulsory for happiness?
am i losing myself?
am i losing everything?
i'm breaking down.
i'm dying inside.
there's nothing more i want then your soul.
but it isnt that all that will fufill my contentment.
what about the aftermath?
with the bad past not exposed, yet.
and the other factors that need to adapt to me.
is it possible?
will it even be possible to BE possible?
i dont know.
my head hurts,
but my heart hurts more than that.
feeling my heart bursting like a mirror,
shattering all over my lungs.
the pain is worse than that.
the psychological disorder is acting up, again.
please no, dont let me seep into the open arms of depression.
i need self control.
i need protection.
i need someone, to guard me like a baby.
a heartbreaker i may seem,
but my heart and soul is more fragile than a feather.
havent you heard?
the most violent/ferocious people on earth are actually the weakest, not the strongest.
it applies likewise.
when will my answer be here?
when will this sorrows fade away?
when will my heart be mended?
when will you?
be deem mine.
wait?
let go?
too confused.
help.
with the sorrowest sorrows,
for once, baobao.
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| slash slit splurt |
[11-10-06 at 5pm] |
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mood |
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nearly dying, going cutting.
mathematics paper two was the shithole because i didn't have enough time to think enough.
plus having section B to complete in fifteen minutes was pure bone shivering and brain overworking.
but however, i think and i hope that i did well for the paper :)
4 days of break before the hectic accounting paper and 7 days to the history one.
at least i can rest my dead brain for a short while.
10 more days, just ten before all get erased from my head.
cant wait for grad night and malaysia with the mates ( KL, sunway lagoon and genting )
whee!
shopping for grad night dress on saturday at Vivo, anyone?
on a budget mah :P
so on the love side of my life for those who are interested,
I AM STILL FUCKING SINGLE!
howwwwwwwwwwww?
i think i'm becoming fat and ugly thats why nobody wants me.
:( pfft. its alright.
i've been single going to half a year excluding BF, and im proud of that :D
being single is relaxing.
the bad thing?
you sometimes yearn for someone's touch, carress. love, concern, care and being so busy.
i've been feeling that recently.
and it's a bad thing.
ai yai dont wanna slip into deeepwression :(
SATAN - are you reading this?
-giggles- dont fret silly. you'll get over the ordeal with a blink of an eye.
i'm your lucky star remember?
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| random |
[11-9-06 at 1pm] |
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i have a feeling i just screwed up my O's.
oh my god.
5 papers left :(
so dead.
i've got hermits! :P
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| let's ride on a supernova |
[11-5-06 at 11pm] |
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mood |
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i've withstood the temptation of clubbing this entire weekend!
oh my god.
think ME in Parkway Macdonalds on Friday AND Saturday studying where everyone else is clubbing/sleeping.
i could really die.
but thank god for the creation of harmful viceroys,
the nights were still bearable.
an alcoholic already i might be,
mommy bought choya for me which is good enough :)
tasted like heavens over dinner with chili crab, frog legs and sweet&sour pork.
i asked my mommy :
me> mommy, what is that thing?
mom> oh frog's legs. very nice.
the next thing i knew that i was picturing at the back of my head was shawn kicking the poor ugly frog.
i was hesitating to eat it at first.
but gosh, the meat is tender and yumyum!
it was freaking good! :D
second time eating it :/
so friday was a boring day at parkway without my babybaby.
saw beng and his friends and so i studied with them throughout the morning till 530?
before we gave up and chilled outside and talked about "what do you wanna be when you grow up?"
that question was asked more than 10 times i swear.
well, till 630 we had eggs and kaya toast for breakfast. :)
and honestly, that was the first time me cracking eggs by myself.
it was fun, and i dont know why they kept laughing at me while i cracked it.
boohoo. bus ride home and slept for 5 pitiful hours before i went to parkway to study again.
ah pui asked me to go to cubes,
and so did jeremy and nicholas :'(
i'm dying!
two more weeks! just two!
pool is annoying me!
i just cant get it!
PATIENCE! PATIENCE!
time to study.
and my minolta/cosina is rotting at homeeee.
after o's! :D
camera time :)
i miss you marc.
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| O- |
[11-2-06 at 1pm] |
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 the big O |
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two major papers down!
five more to go :(
7 different subjects moreeeeeee :''(
so little time, so much to do.
art yesterday was a breeze though i like my final layout.
i think the idea was good and creative enough,
although i didnt had time to do the touch ups and final layer of marker-ing.
but it turned out pretty well still :)
wanted to sneak a picture but it was useless!
:) Cocco Latte on Tuesday night,
clubbing in between the O level papers is rocking balls.
some bloody party which was so annoying.
but it was fun nevertheless.
made friends with the ex-door bitch and she bought be tequilas.
and finally, the waiter that always tries hitting on me finally introduced himself.
took a lil walk with Ivan after Cocco closed,
and i have to admit; i miss being attached.
i want a boyfriend who is physically affectionate,
why isnt there any left?
they're either horny, or desperate otherwise.
YUCK.
SLOSH AT CUBE THIS SATURDAY?
Jeremy's party :(
free entry
shots at 3, jugs at 12.
so tempting baby!
save me.
Math Paper and SS on monday. help
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| january 20,06. |
[10-31-06 at 1pm] |
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mood |
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 of you |
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it was down to the playground at 245 in the morning last night.
feeling like the january days.
everything just seems so comfortable and right with you.
something that i could have never experienced with another,
or so i've tried.
so it was the usual long chattings,
and the playful/shy tickles.
of course, the foot massage which i always loveddddd.
the kisses, baby, are always the sweetest from you.
"your tempo is my tempo.
your style is my style.
you taught me how."
-giggles-
guess that is why the kisses always feels so good.
you always know how to kiss me right and good.
so, when will you feel ready to commit?
when will you finally realise it doesn't need two persons' similar interest to click well?
wake up tookie.
it's not all about similar interests. :)
you'll realise that one day..
and so, for now...
"Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you"
loving you, tookie.
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| seeking refuge in your mind |
[10-29-06 at 2pm] |
| [ |
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crappy |
] |
went to PP on friday to study with chai,
then met pong before heading up to classic and as usual,
watch the 7 and 9pm show! :D
hurhur, after pong left,
chai and i went down to ECP to meet leonard :)
talked about marc and argh, i do miss the old boy we used to know.
then left at mindnight like little cinderellas to 168 to meet heng.
and what a coincidence and crowd we had!
met marvin on the way home so we got him to go with us.
then matthew shiong and his ex girlfriend came down so they joined us.
then christopher came down as well!
it was quite a crowd!
slacked till four in the morning before heading home.
and unable to sleep because plans were made with pong and joe to meet at 6+ to sentosa.
i swear it was fun!
although it would have been more fun if joe wasnt a spoilsport.
so i was so tired i fell asleep suntanning.
left at about ten thirty with chai and i having cumshotted on our chests in the toilet.
we were giggling like mad :D
   
[ at 6:45 in the morning / koala and pong / candid / attempt of yvonne of looking topless ]
  
[ 8am, siloso beach; all shagged and tired ]
     
[ tram ride camwhoring! ]
 
[ can you spot yvonne chai and i? ]
 
[ pong managed to climb up! i tried, but i was scared to fall! ]
    
[ at the LONELY BEACH while pong snapped away / Joe the Life Guard/ candid pong ]
  
[chai turtle don know try to be what / at Vivo City's food court / candid joe ]
so, after taking a very long walk at vivo city,
novelty wore off.
everybody got tired and decided to take a bus nap to pp.
chai pong and i ended up at classic stoning from like 3plus to 845 in the night.
doing nothing.
oh, pong taught me a lil of pool playing.
heheh, i feel so pampered but yet stupid. :/
took a cab home WHICH I FELL ASLEEP IN because i was super tired and when i came online,
i felt like clubbing.
and fiona did message me telling me she's going to cocco.
hell, it was fucking FUCKING PACKED at cocco.
some SMU halloween party thing.
so mommy and daddy sent me down to cocco at midnight. :D
i know, spoilt brat!
upon entering, i got a jug of cranberry vodka lime free.
and then dajie and i had a tequila shot each.
before dajie's friend's friends bought me another tequila.
and jayme being my best bartender, got me Sex On The Beach.
i took 7, he took 3.
i shocked dajie's friends especially when im only 17 :/
so after heading to the dance floor,
i pulled dajie's friend up to the podium but she didnt want!
but she made a deal with me!
she'd buy me a drink if i could get her guy friend up to the podium.
omg. i think i was like slut dancing again. :/
WHAT!? he was sitting down what!
so i got another 2/10 sex on the beach.
thats my fucking favourite drink :)
other than lychee martini.
i wanna try tequila rose one day ;)
slurppps-
so i left at 145,
took a cab down to lido to meet heng.
and then i dont know where were we heading to before i started flaring my temper
and ended up making titus come down to orchard towers for nothing :/
so,
the three of us ended up in macs and i ate AGAIN.
but i dont know what the hell was i eating because i think i was sleep eating.
but i manage to eat.
ivan, cocco's dj called me -_-
and asked me to go back to cocco. WHEN IT IS CLOSED ALREADY LAH?
i dont know what the hell but i was too sleepy to hold a decent conversation.
heng took a cab and supposed to drop me off at my house.
but i dont know why he got out of the cab at my house after the cab has turned and wanted to leave the car park.
i remember puking behind the wall :( and all over my pretty pretty heels marc chose for me. :(
but yeah,
next thing i knew, heng was holding me by the arm.
so after cleaning myself up a little, headed home, washed my feet, and FINALLY,
i got to sleep.
yesterday's vomit was clean cut lah! :D ew.
i miss Gigi!
 
P/S- another SMU party at Cocco Latte on Tuesday Night again, anyone?
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| memories, however, are social beings. |
[10-27-06 at 12pm] |
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i've been lying to myself all this while;
the fact that i've not gotten over you.
HOW ?!
this is super annoying -_-
get out of my head you cookie!
-slaps head-
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| mental psychological disorder |
[10-25-06 at 10pm] |
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are you happy now?
are you happier now?
please tell me,
i really need to know.
where did the rest of my entire post went to?
i want to catch shooting stars and make love at 3 in the mornings.
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| the story of tookie & kittie. |
[10-22-06 at 4pm] |
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how much did that hug meant to me?
to the extent that if it was any longer i'd be leaving in tears.
I was alright for awhile
I could smile for awhile
But I saw you last night
You held my hand so tight
As you stopped to say hello; Oh you wished me well
You couldn't tell that I'd been
Crying over you
Crying over you
When you said,so long
Left me standing all alone
Alone and crying
Crying, crying, crying, crying
It's hard to understand
How the touch of your hand
Can start me crying
I thought that I was over you
But it's true, oh so true
I love you even more
Than I did bfore
But darling what can I do?
For you don't love me
And I'll always be
crying over you
crying over you..
Yes now you're gone
And from this moment on
I'll be crying, crying, crying, crying
Yes crying
Crying
Over you
-Vonda Shepard's
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[10-22-06 at 6am] |
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there are the days where you do not appear in my head at all.
and there are some, which i simply just cant get you out of sight.
sometimes i think i even hallucinate you as some other person that i'm talking to.
that will make me just so happy i wont stop giggling and laughing.
allowing others to think that i'm high on smth illegal.
but no one knows what am i picturing with my eyes, my heart, or my mind.
i'm glad that i didn't get to see her upclose today.
or i think my heart would have just stopped beating,
and my body dropping dead in front of you.
i know i'm crazy.
i always have been, no?
remember the last time we were at DXO?
comparing the girl you knew and the girl that you do not know anymore,
i thank god for incidents like those to occur,
to allow me to reflect on myself,
to be a better person, a better lover.
a more sensitive and understanding human being.
thank you marc loh,
thank you so very much for all the support you gave me, believing in me.
on a lighter and happier note,
clubbing at dxo was rather bad.
got in with jiejies id with lucas ahpui darren and a neighbour.
then saw the TP designers and then javier heng and all. blablabla.
danced till i was rather bored because everyone wasnt exactly dancing on the dancing floor,
but rather, just moving their bodies.
pathetic.
had a whiskey coke, then shared a graveyard with astley!
and a lychee martini and a vodka ribena thanks to javier heng! :)
surprisingly, he changed so so much.
from the chao ah beng i used to hate, to someone, so happy, cheerful and understanding.
i like the changes in people i see so far ;)
i saw the pig today :)
and i like what i see.
but capricorns are such simple minded people,
i seem to be wasting my time.
i know.
oh well!
ill bring you in my heart to my grave.
please know that if i love you,
i am going to do so for a very long time.
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